Monday, December 29, 2008

The 'Save' Button... Press It!

"A dear teacher once put the significance of love for me in this unforgettable way: think of all your knowledge and reflections about God, His Prophet, and Islam as data you type onto your computer. But if you forget to press the 'Save' button, you will lose it all sooner or later.

Love is that 'Save' button. It is love that inscribes your knowledge about Allah onto your heart so that it becomes indelible. It is your love for Allah, His Message and the Messenger that enables you to weather the storms of confusion, doubt, desire, and persecution that you must face in this life. When faced with doubts and confusion, it is the job of mind to stand back and evaluate, calculate, compare, ponder - but it is the love in your heart that keeps holding on even as your mind questions.

When faced with desire and temptation, your heart will pull you in opposite directions, but if your love for God is strong anchored, it will conquer the lesser, lower loves. "

(Uwaymir Anjum)

p/s: There is no 'save' button for the lesser, lower loves that are unlawful. Of course, by all means 'save' if they are lawful.

The Offer Not Taken

It suffices, on the issue of zuhd, to relate what has been reported by al-Tirmidhi, Ibn Majah, and others, on the authority of Abu Umamah, that the Prophet s.a.w. said: "My Lord offered me the land of Makkah in its gold and silver equivalent. I said: "No, Lord, rather I satiate myself with food one day and stay hungry another day, so that, when I am hungry I turn to You beseechingly and remember You, and when I eat to my full satisfaction I praise and thank You."

Al-Tirmidhi said it was a good (hasan) hadith.

The Prophet was given the choice to be a 'king prophet', but he chooses to be a 'servant prophet' (a moderate one). What about you?

Thursday, November 13, 2008

You are impatient


The context: It was during the early period of Islam at Mecca, when the muslims were frequently tortured by the Quraysh so that they abandon their new religion.

One day, Khabab Ibn Al-Arat, one of the oppressed people in Mecca who was severely abused and tortured, rushed to Allah's Prophet (Peace be upon him) asking his help. He found him lying on a garment in the shade of the Ka'bah. He asked him "O, Prophet of Allah (Peace be upon him) please ask Allah's Victory for us and call upon Him on our behalf. The Prophet (Peace be upon him) said:"Not long age, a believer used to be dragged to the desert where he was buried up to his neck in the sand. Then the disbelievers used to saw his head into two halfs and combed his body with iron combes until they split his flesh and bones. Yet, all this horrible torture did not force him to turn renegade. By Allah, He will ultimately bestow His Victory on us so much so that the traveler from San'aa on his way to Hadramaut will fear no one except Allah and the wolf lest he should devour his sheep, but you are impatient." [Reported by Al-Bukhari]

A knowledgeable person once recited to me this hadith, and he said to me, nowadays travelling from San'aa to Hadramaut is far from being a peaceful journey as envisioned by the Prophet s.a.w. - he said shootouts happen frequently, illegal gunmen are everywhere, tribal violence is common and so on and so forth. When the companion asked for victory, the Prophet s.a.w. envisioned peace and the worship of Oneness of God to spread. This religion should be a peaceful religion, and we wonder what is wrong with us?

That's an aside, my main point here is: If we find our little struggle with whatever in this life as unbearable, then indeed "you are impatient." Apalah sangat pon yang kita buat dengan hidup kita ni? Makan, belajar, main, tido je...

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Making Things Right


Some people say reflecting on a deed is more important than doing the deed itself. These past few years, I come to a realization that almost everything that I do in my life, I do them wrongly; in spite of that, my life was 'perfect'. Note: This is not some Ghazalian epiphany, it's not about the turmoil regarding my intention (I am not claiming my intentions are sound either (He knows best), it's just not that).

The best way to describe it is like a smooth-running operating system that never crashed before, thus there was an illusion of robustness about the operating system . Let's say the operating system used to run on a single-core processor platform, suddenly when the industry switched to multi-core processors, it crashed almost every minute. The programmers were baffled, they tried to patch up the operating system with quick-fix service packs, but nothing was working. Actually the programmers realized that there was something fundamentally wrong with the kernel of the operating system, and the only way to fix it was to do a major overhaul, or to just discard it and start with something totally new.

Let's cut out what was wrong with me, it's too long a story. All I can say, I think now I am on my way to make things right (insyaAllah), although I am still stumbling, I just know it. As Tiger puts it, "because when you're changing something, what you think you're doing is not always what you're actually doing." For those who don't know, Tiger Woods was dominating the PGA tour between 1999-2002, but the young superstar was crazy enough to revamp his swing and search for a new, virtually 'perfect' swing. Everyone thought he was crazy at that time, but it was perhaps a necessary change: Some claim he will not be able to keep up with his old swing as he ages, even though it was a good one (Just like the operating system?). Whatever the truth is, Tiger made his resurgence in 2005 and onwards.

Hear what Tiger has to say about his swing changes: "It's never easy taking swing changes into competition. You have to be prepared and understand that you're going to fail. And it's OK to fail. The hardest thing is picking yourself up when you get knocked down. But to make the changes, you've got to keep getting up and realize that you have to get worse to get better."

Really, Tiger?

Note3: Phew... I managed to supress the 'Kyuubi' yesterday, alhamdulillah.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Much Much More

I just finished my Islamic History course term test today. Alhamdulillah, I think I did okay, make du'a for me. Anyway, after going through some parts of Ibn Hisham's The Life of Muhammad, Tariq Ramadan's In the Footsteps of the Prophet, Al-Tabari's The Founding of the Caliphate, Montogomerry Watt's works, etcetera, my head is spinning with people's name, places names, terms, Maghazi, Fathul this and that, and maps. Doing review for the test really felt like as though I've never actually learned the sirah of the Prophet s.a.w. before this - my faulty memory. But now I feel like telling everyone about interesting events from the life of the Prophet s.a.w. Since I have killer engineering subjects tests coming up soon, I think I should contain mysef from writing something long (guys maybe I can take up one usrah slot to share with you all someday).

This is a speech given by Abu Bakr r.a. after the Prophet's s.a.w. death, when the ummah was in a state of shock and disbelief about the passing away of the beloved Prophet s.a.w.:-

After giving thanks and praise to God, Abu Bakr r.a. said "O men, if anyone worships Muhammad, Muhammad is dead: If anyone worships God, God is alive, immortal.' Then he recited this verse: "Muhammad is nothing but an apostle. Apostles have passed away before him. Can it be that if he were to die or be killed you would turn back on your heels? He who turns back does no harm to God, but God will reward the grateful” (Sura 3, 38)

*Ibn Hisham, The Life of Muhammad

Sometimes calamities strike us, but if we do our work for Him, we can transcend the need for support, recognitions, and rewards in the dunya; we are doing our work for something much... much... more than that. This psychological state is epitomized in this hadith:-

The Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings be upon him) said, “How wonderful is the case of a believer; there is good for him in everything and this applies only to a believer. If prosperity attends him, he expresses gratitude to Allah and that is good for him; and if adversity befalls him, he endures it patiently and that is good for him” (Muslim).

And sometimes, less is more:-

The Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings be upon him) said, "He whom Allah intends good, He makes him to suffer from some affliction" (Al-Bukhari).

Friday, October 31, 2008

Just like you

I refuse to see this world in binary,
I am pretty sure life has many hues,
If you think I am wrong, then guide me,
Verily my heart is laden with lots of rues,

I am not by your side in your exertion,
But I am with you for this just cause,
Indeed we're unalike, but don’t harbor suspicion,
Stop making accusation, let us make a pause,

This treaty has no insidious intention,
Believe in me, don’t make dissensions,
This life is too short for tedious arguments,
Let us not spiral into the abyss of oblivion,

Remember this day when we finally get through,
I am His servant through and through,
Just like you,
Just like you…

p/s: Sometimes we are not on the same side, but if our work is for Him (for this deen), why can't we just appreciate our differences and get along just fine?

Friday, October 17, 2008

Islamic History Month in Canada

(photo courtesy of Ibrahim Shalaby IHMC visual art e-gallery)

Unbelievable eh? So much for dar-this and dar-that. Canada's federal parliament officially declared October as Islamic History Month in Canada. The only question that I have in my mind: What about it? So far I haven't seen events about Islam going around the city like the famous Nuit Blanche Toronto art festival or whatever.

Anyway, for a start the Royal Ontario Museum (ROM) is holding a Muslim Heritage Weekend on 18th and 19th October - they will premier Prince Among Slaves, The Last Prophet animated film, some halal food, and some artifacts.

My University's MSA is holding two events: Muslim-Christian Student Dialogue and IHMC Workshop - but places are limited... Hurry up?

Check out the calendar of events by clicking here and jom datang ramai-ramai!

Ok at least let's go to ROM this weekend.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Prejudices, Book-Banning, and the Feminist Discourse

Ustazah Alqasam has been kind enough to write her thoughts on my blog's shoutout box. The shoutout box is kind of too small, so I am writing my reply and thoughts here rather than there. I think it would benefit the reader too if I share my thoughts here – insyaAllah.

One can read here for S.S. Dr. Mohd Asri's objection towards some book banning business that is going on at Malaysia. I am disappointed myself, especially the banning of Ustaz Abdul Rahman’s book Pelik Tapi Benar Dalam Solat – I’ve read that book and found it as very insightful. Sometimes the level of prejudice that we hold towards each other is just amazing – be it the salafi issue, the racial issue, the liberalism issue, etcetera. At certain mosques at Malaysia, if you pray and move your finger continuously during tasyahud, people give you stares like you’re some criminal. I am not giving this example to bring up some insignificant ‘salafi issues’, my point is: There is just too much judgmental that is going on and not enough self-reflection, which is actually what we should do.
I haven’t read the other book that is being banned: Muslim Women and the Challenge of Islamic Extremism. I must say the title of the book appeals to me a lot. I was looking forward to reading it after I’ve read "Unveiling the Ideal : A New Look at Early Muslim Women", published by the same publishing house. Honestly I was amazed by the book and I would consider it as a valuable asset to the feminist discourse in Islam.



I've listened to Dr. Umar Faruq Abdullah's series of lectures "Famous Women in Islam" before, and the book complimented Dr. Umar's lectures very well. Great figures like Nusaybah, Umm Salamah, Karimah, etcetera are explained very well in Unveiling the Ideal : A New Look at Early Muslim Women. If the new book by SIS doesn't contain anything really 'dodgy', they must feel some injustice is going on right now. Even if it is really really 'dodgy', let's listen and understand what their qualms are about. Even I am no big fan of most of the writers of the book, but I would like to understand their views. Remember Imam Abu Hanifah's advice to his disciple Abu Yusuf: "take an interest in those who do not come to you."

I still remember even some of Karen Armstrong's books and Fatimah Mernissi's books are also banned at Malaysia - I can get hold of them over here and they are actually fabulous books. Karen Asrmstrong is actually an Islamic apologist! I am afraid with this kind of attitude, we are again and again making blunders in promoting the deen. It's not just about killing intellectual development in the country, we are responsible for making people having bad perception about the religion - people would consider banning books as something normative in the religion.

Certainly we should not alienate any parties, unless it is really a necessity. We should engage people and try to understand them in order to tackle issues like this. I really like Syaikh Hamza Yusuf’s words, “We ought to keep in mind that Mosses a.s. was commanded to go to Pharaoh and speak to him a gentle word (Qur’an 20:44). Remembering that we are not more righteous than Mosses a.s. and that our brother is certainly not father astray than Pharaoh, we can approach the matter with gentle humility and a genuine desire for the well-being and guidance of all.” (Agenda to Change Our Condition - Page 19)

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Scary

There are three types of people in this world that are scary: 1) Hypocrites 2)Morally-bankrupt people, 3) People who have no sense of haya’ (tak reti malu). You may ask me, what do you mean by scary? I would say something is scary when I can’t predict the outcome. Note: I don’t mean I need to predict every outcome in this world; I understand that there are random processes that are happening in this universe and they are not scary (i.e. quantum tunneling is not scary, it's just subhanAllah).

Hypocrites are scary because they tell you lies, thus their words are not reliable to predict an outcome. Morally-bankrupt people are scary because everything they do is like a uniform random distribution – no bell-curve at all. I expect people to behave according to certain principles, but morally-bankrupt people just do whatever they want. People who have no sense of haya’ live thier lives according to their whims. And I can’t find any reliable random data distribution for ‘whim’ just yet.

So please don't be scary... It scares me.

Ittaqullah!

Sunday, October 5, 2008

The Unquantifiable Factor

  • The best food is the one that is cooked with love and rahmah. Actually you can feel it with your heart, not with your tongue. It's not about the taste buds on your tongue that transfer the sensation to your brain, but it's about your soul that vibrates with love that is sincerely put into the food - the barakah.

  • So nothing beats home-cooked food, not even the one from the most expensive high-class restaurant. Nothing beats food that is cooked by people who care for you, not even the food cooked by the best chef in this world.

  • Rahmah is something unquantifiable in the materialistic sense. I can't say a hundred more rahmah will cost a hundred more dollars - I can't write that in the invoice.

  • If we choose to vew this world through the materialistic lense, then we cease to be human. If it is just about profit and cost-cutting, then welcome to the modern world - a sad world that renders words like barakah, rahmah, and ihsan meaningless.

  • Cronyism is despicable if you give position only to people you know and cause injustice by depriving others from the position that they deserve. Asking your wife to cook dinner for you (if she is willing), instead of ordering food from next door restaurant is not cronyism. You are not depriving the next door restaurant from anything at all.

p/s: Thanks to those who have cooked food with rahmah for us the other day. Jazakumullah Khairan.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Recommendations

I kind of made this decision to stop expounding my pseudo-intellect on many issues at the moment. Reason? It's time to walk the talk and get myself busy on the ground rather than becoming the new al-Ghazali pretender. Anyway, here is a couple of book/video recommendations. Theme of the day: Changing our perception about what Islamic State is all about. I guess many people (especially non-Muslims) will be scared if we mention Islamic State - all they think about is totalitarian style moral policing. There is no one to be blamed but ourselves. All I can say is: There shouldn't be any Big Brother in an Islamic State. Owh wait, who needs an Islamic state in the first place? Ok enough of pseudo-intellect.


Who Needs an Islamic State?




Reviving the Spirit of Islamic Spain - Hamza Yusuf

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Just emo...

Sometimes I feel (or I think?) this world has so many temptations, to a point that it is pretty hopeless to be steadfast in fending them all. My charge is: This modern world is just a messed up world to live in.

For a start, everyone has feelings by 18 (max), and one is supposed to abstain oneself from any form of 'dodgy involvement' until perhaps 25. The thing is, not everyone shares this spiritual struggle as some people just couldn’t be bothered that much about being true to the Law (maybe I’m just a hypocrite, I stumble all the time too).

Of course, the common argument is: Get yourself busy and you won’t have time for this and that. Well honestly, school work itself is driving me crazy already, add my activism and other extra-curricular activities, I’m pretty much half-dead most of the days. So yes… I’m busy and there always seems to be not enough time for everything.

But you can’t say: I’m too busy to a point that I don’t feel like eating. Well, maybe that happens during some odd days when you’re so busy, but not everyday for 5 years right? So yes I’m busy, but that doesn’t mean, for example, I don’t feel like talking to someone I’m not supposed to talk to (let’s just consider this as a hypothetical case).

So I guess I have to continue fighting myself for the next five years. That seems like a monumental feat that borders on being impossible to do. I know it should be: I live my life for You - a statement that is way easier said than done. Usually it’s more like, I live my life for my own nafs. What ungrateful servant!

Note: It is a rahmah that in this world other people are veiled from seeing the content of our heart, what we actually do behind everyone’s back, and who we really are. If we really know all those things, we won’t be able to even sit with each other peacefully. Of course we can’t run away during that Day.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

What Did Muhammad Teach You?

Today, as I was walking home after tarawikh, suddenly someone shouted at me from my back, "WHAT DID MUHAMMAD TEACH YOU?" I turned around and saw the guy: An old man, homeless, begging for money beside the road, and he looked rather drunk. I just smiled at him; I didn't have money with me; any attempt at conversation seemed unwise given his temperament. I guess the sight of a person wearing white kandoorah (jubah putih) in the middle of downtown is still perturbing to some.

I always wonder... How is it like to be a sister wearing the niqaab in the western world? The sense of ghuraba' that one feels. I guess she must be getting insults on regular basis - some niqaabi sisters related to me that they do get unkind words from time to time, but experiencing it oneself is another matter all together. Anyway, the incident reminded me of Dawud Whansby's awesome song, Don't Talk to Me About Muhammad:-


As we walk along together, we will get along just fine...

As we walk along together, we will get along just fine...

As I travel down life's road, I will get along just fine...

From Youtube's video info:-

The Prophet (pbuh) offered to help this woman, and all she does throughout their encounter is to mock and malign the Prophet (pbuh). Yet, he says nothing. He continues to help the woman with her load. He does not lash back at her; he does not pray for God's destruction upon her; he does not drop her stuff and let her fend for herself. No. He helps the woman anyway, and when she finds out who he is, all she could do was follow him into Islam.Yet, the fact that she became Muslim is not the most important aspect of this story. It was the Prophet's character thats amazing the most. It is this aspect of the Prophet's sunnah that many of us have completely neglected. to read about this story in the hadith (I have no idea abot it's authenticity), go here: http://www.altmuslim.com/a/a/a/missing_the_point/

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Syaikh Yahya Rhodus' Advice to Students: Contextualizing Tradition

This is just my note on SYR's lecture at UofT. So it is only my note, any flaws is on my behalf.

Advice to a student contextualizing tradition
Allah SWT is beautiful and loves beauty. The Prophet SAW was beautiful in conduct and manners as Prophet Yousuf AS was. We ask that Allah makes our lives beautiful and that we enter a life of eternal beauty despite the hardships of the current life. The extent that we beauty our current selves will help extend our abode in the Next Life.

In looking at the current modern environment,
Nasiha: The religion is sincere advice-this term combines sincerity and advice and this is in relationship to Allah, the Prophet SAW, Muslims, Imams, etc. This combines sincerity and this falls strongly in worship and how one practices religion.

All of ones effort should be placed in worship and this is one of the deepest drives within humans-‘whoever works hard will find’. It’s part of our make-up that we find/yearn for answers-this tranquility is exposed through experience and there are thus different levels/platforms of knowledge and the seeking of knowledge is something that is sacred and desirable.

The greatest desire is knowledge getting one to Allah SWT; thus, religious knowledge is different from secular knowledge as it can lead you to an ultimate station. It requires intention and the destination is purity and Light-such that a heart becomes fertile and knowing of Allah SWT’s presence. People can attain this through their lives such as Khidr AS during the time of Prophet Musa AS.

Contextualizing tradition: Tradition may be thought in different ways but what is meant here is how Islam has been preserved and passed on. It is also how traditional knowledge goes against modern ways.

The meaning of the word Tradition comes from ‘handing down’ and in an all-inclusive meaning, it would involve how our Religion has been handed down through scholars. If it wasn’t through their works, it would have been futile. The preservation of the Isnad, Ansaab, Ihraab allows us to access to the meanings and it has been of great benefit as we can understand the Religion in the same instance as the past.

Muslims shouldn’t be scared by challenges but rather, we should seek to respond wisely to the different challenges. Codified responses would form as a result of the challenges and this has left us with the opportunity to rise up and contextualize the religion for the people at the time.

The issue of living in a Western country, one could be optimistic or pessimistic but we have to deal with the bad things but we should be optimistic as well as it is the Truth and Allah SWT promised the success of Islam. Some will take part in the contextualizing of the Tradition.

These different responses to the onset of modernity should get us to think of where we stand, especially for the youth as it is incumbent on their backs. Looking at reports such as the RAND, we see their codifying of the Muslim environment (into secularists, modernists, traditionalists, extremists).

These different groups make conclusions and we should realize the importance of sticking to tradition. The handing down of the religion is something that can be likened to a tree; the passing down goes right to the roots and so, one should be firmly rooted in the tradition or else it would lead to confusion and removal from our religion.

Renewing the wisdom of the religion is thus very important even at different times that would address different people-clarifying matters in current times in the way one thinks and views the world. There is thus a deep understanding we can get in this Tajdeed.

Any Endeavour embarked upon should have inward and outward elements. Our religion has inward and outward dimensions and both must be fulfilled or else the deeds won’t be fruitful. This goes hand in hand for instance with fasting; one should be sincere and do it for the Sake of Allah and keep it in bounds of the religion.

The element of cleansing the heart is probably the most important base for us. Sincerity is second most important. Next, a sense of connection and turning to Allah SWT constantly (Tawajjuh) no matter what we do, we make righteous intentions and constantly returning to him. These inner realities should be in conformance with the Shariah and we should do it with Ihsan. We should strive for excellence always. Patience and perseverance is the last most important aspect and one should keep from being hasty with results or being sorrowful.

High spiritual aspirations and desire to ultimate posts should be another aspect where we strive for (Hima) always. Combining the meanings and prophetic inheritance to the inward and outward parts of our lives will help InshaAllah ensuring success in this life and the Next.

Note 1: Ramadhan hasn't really been going well, I feel bad about myself. We don't live in a perfect world, and sometimes, can we choose the lesser of the two evils? Or will I be condemned? But sometimes self-righteousness seems selfish to me.

Note 2: Sorry that I am not writing reports on the events. I didn't manage to attend the 'Dear Beloved Son' lecture at IMO, but I managed to attend some of SYR lectures at other venues. Maybe (If He permits), someday, but I'm not promising. Actually I got to catch up with Him.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Skule Again...


My 'engineering stress' diagram (CIV102)

First day of classes and I'm excited. Classes? Excited? Ok I am insane. Well, enough of babysitting jrs for the time being, a lot of things are at stake for me in these coming semesters.


ECE302H1F - Probability, Statistics & Random Processes
Statistics! I would have said yikes, but winner winner chicken dinner. No, of course I don't support gambling (or counting, whatever), but I just hope I am half as genius as he is to fly through this course.


ECE334H1F - Digital Electronics
Simple math, I like this. Just Ohm's law, KVL, KCL, Q=CV, and i=Q/t, everything else is just 'engineering intuition' (I think I am more of an intuitive sort of person rather than a number churner).


ECE344H1F - Operating Systems
Never thought I will be learning about Harry Potter in my engineering courses! Sounds like fun...

ECE361H1F - Computer Networks
I am a big fan of Alexander Graham Bell since I read his biography: The Reluctant Genius. Computer network is the modern day telegraphy - so to speak.

NMC273Y1Y - Islamic History to 1258
InsyaAllah will make full use of this course to refresh my memory and deepen my understanding on this very interesting subject.


A good reminder for back to school:

"Verily, Allah has enjoined excellence (ihsan) with regard to everything". [Muslim]

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Imaginary Thought #1

Sometimes I have this big, bad imaginary idea - for the sake of simplicity - called 'saving other people'. Well this is just a cognitive stunt performed by my brain in order to trick myself into thinking: I can transcend my egocentrism. And sometimes things go awfully wrong; by that time I am bewildered as to even the sincerity of my own heart. Essentially I will run out of excuses to euphemise my selfish acts to secure my selfish needs under the banner: "For the good of all". So who am I? Is there a primordial evil inside me? Am I not just selfish? What's wrong with it? Don't I just love You?

Ramadhan mubarak.

"Those of Faith are overflowing in their love for God" (Qur'an 2:165)

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Shaykh Yahya Rhodus in Town


[click on image to register]

We will get an exclusive event with him on Sept 6th, but it's a secret (*wink* *wink*).

p/s: I am not 'ultra-this' or 'ultra-that' (in my understanding), and please don't resent me for not being so... I respect everyone insyaAllah.

Monday, September 1, 2008

Some of My Fav Quotes

On principle, love, and fight. Essentials aren't they?

"I will keep the Law given by God; sanctioned by man. I will hold on to the principals received by me when I was sane, and not mad- as I am now. Laws and principles are not for the times when there is no temptation: they are for such moments as this, when body and soul rise in mutiny against the rigour, stringent are they; inviolate they shall be" (Jane Eyre)

Temptations... I wish I am strong during such times. Inviolate they shall be!

"Sometimes, it is true, love comes as a result of a definite cause outside the soul, but then it passes away when the cause itself disappears: one who is fond of you because of a certain circumstance will turn his back on you when that motive no longer exists." (Ibn Hazm)

So true... No such thing as head over heels, even though that is perhaps the usual tendency.

“Never do I argue with a man with a desire to hear him say what is wrong, or to expose him and win victory over him. Whenever I face an opponent in debate I silently pray - "O Allah, help him so that truth may flow from his heart and on his tongue, and so that if truth is on my side, he may follow me; and if truth be on his side, I may follow him." (Imam Syafi'i)

Keep it dispassionate and keep an open mind. Surely that is no easy feat.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

Something Wrong

How many times have we actually recite the infamous Surah Yasin? How many times have we actually pondered upon its meaning?

"Did I not charge you, O ye sons of Adam, that ye worship not the devil - Lo! he is your open foe! But that ye worship Me? That was the right path. Yet he hath led astray of you a great multitude. Had ye then no sense?" [Yasin:ayah 60-62]

Certainly I think I have no sense and I am unaware of my open enemy! I must be insane, am I not?

p/s: I seriously think there is something wrong with my life. Hmm, I'll refrain myself from writing for 1 month - I don't think I can do longer than that.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Just Tak Boleh La

This post is another one of those: "Let's blog while waiting for 5.00 p.m. and my work is already done." So nothing interesting reader: Just another unimportant story in my life.

Yesterday was a big triumph for me – caution reader, it’s nothing big, I’m over hyping things again – when I managed to coax my little brother to go to surau. You don’t know how this little fellow can be really, really stubborn when he doesn’t want something: He used to cry when we brought him to the barber shop, and the only thing that made him wanna cut his hair was because somebody ejek him that he looked like a girl with his long hair. But still he cried at the shop because he didn’t like the buzzing razor-cutter sound. Good thing is: He is actually obedient most of the time, his idiosyncrasies only prevail at rare moments.

So I’ve been ajak-ajak ayam him to come to surau while I’m at home this holiday, but with no success just yet. I don’t really want to force him, because apparently it doesn’t really work like that – with anyone – plus he is still small. So how did I get him to come to surau? I guess the short answer will be: With a little bit of trick up my sleeves.

Yesterday we wanted to depart from home to Stadium Shah Alam right after Asar for the Chelsea vs Malaysia match, so he was in an extremely jovial mode – perfect for the surau-coming proposal. So it was a straight “yes” when I asked him whether he wanted to come along with me for Asar then we can go to the stadium straight away. By the way, my usual ajak-ajak ayam for Maghrib will be responded with “nak sembahyang dengan mama lah dekat rumah” or “tak habis lagi Sin Chan.”

One more thing, I’m really kaki bangku – I’m not stealing your ironic nick name bangku – and I don’t usually watch football matches at stadium, it’s just that we got free tickets and this little fellow seems to have ‘potential’ – hopefully with “taqwa 00” printed at the back of his jersey in the future, not “materrazi 23.” Here is how it went:-

“Bila kita masuk surau kita kene solat tahuyatul masjid dulu tau.”

“Tetapi Adi tak tau macam mana”

“Solat tahiyatul masjid tu solat sunat 2 raka’at. Ala, macam solat subuh jugak la, tetapi tak payah baca doa Qunut. Ok?”

“Hmm, ok. Adi nak ikut abang je lah”

“Tak boleh. Solat ni kene solat sendiri. Ok?”

“Kenapa?”

“Dah memang sunnah nye macam tu, kite kene ikut la. Boleh?”

“Haa boleh.”

This little fellow does know how to solat properly. I mean he doesn’t move his body for no particular reason, he concentrates his eyes on the sujud place, even if you call his name, he will not respond and buat dek je as he knows he is in solat. Of course he knows all the recitations in the solat. After we were done with tahiyatul masjid, he saw this on the carpet: "Syaf kanak-kanak di sini"

He read the writing and he asked me:

“Apa maksud tulisan ni?”

“Nanti kita solat asar berjema’ah, Adi kene solat dekat belakang tulisan ni la.”

”Abang solat mana?”

”Dekat depan”

”Dekat depan tu ke?” (he pointed at the imam’s place)

“Takde lah. Belakang imam la. Barisan tu.” (I pointed at those safs behind the Imam’s)

“Adi nak solat sekali dengan abang dekat depan la”

”Hmm, tak boleh la”

”Kenapa?”

I paused for a few long seconds. What should I say? You’re not fit? You don’t know how to solat properly? I couldn’t bring myself to say those things, plus I don’t hold those views. So I had to improvise a bit. By the way, didn’t I mention that he is stubborn?

“Just tak boleh la”

“Ye la kenapa?”

“Hmm, orang yang jaga surau ni tak bagi.”

”Kenapa tak bagi pulak?”

“Sebab die kata budak kecik kene solat dekat belakang la”

”Kenapa pulak?”

”Hmm...” [pause] (Iqamah.... and people started lining up for the saf)

“Adi nak solat dengan abang”

”Ok la, jom” (I waited for everyone to get into the saf so we can be at the least ‘obstructive’ position possible)

Then some person beside me asked me:

“Ni dah sunat ke belum? Kalau belum sunat kene solat dekat belakang”

(Adoi.. at least the argument was sunat, not baligh).

(Senyum dekat pakcik. It's not time for me to get into any kind of debate)

”Adi solat dekat belakang eh?”

”Hmm ok” (with a sad face)

I think he wouldn’t have been too reluctant if there were other kids around too at the back line. But as I said, apart from flashes of stubbornness, he is actually an obedient kid, he wouldn’t complain in the end. The point of me bringing him there was to experience how it’s like to solat in a big – at least bigger than at home – jema’ah. It wasn't really achieved by solat on his own in 'kid's saf'. Anyway, at least it's a step forward in getting him used to come to surau. We should be more kid-friendly, shouldn’t we? At Masjid Toronto they even have a small nursery inside the Masjid. I personally think the Masjid’s authority has to be respected first, so I will respect their decision on top of my own opinion.

*****

Di dalam hadis yang diriwayatkan oleh Imam Muslim daripada Abu Qatadah al-Ansori r.h. beliau berkata (maksudnya): "Aku melihat Nabi s.a.w mengimami solat sedang mendukung Umamah binti Abi al-As yang juga anak perempuan Zainab binti Rasulillah s.a.w. Apabila baginda rukuk diletakkannya dan apabila bangun dari sujud baginda mengangkatnya semula."


Imam Khatib al-Syarbini di dalam kitabnya Mughni al-Muhtaj ila Makrifati Ma’ani alfaz al-Minhaj, jilid 1, hal. 492: "Adapun dibelakangkan kanak-kanak daripada orang dewasa seperti yang diperkatakan oleh al-Azraie apabila saf orang dewasa telah penuh, tetapi sekiranya terdapat kekosongan pada saf orang dewasa maka ianya diisi dengan kanak-kanak."

Go here for a comprehensive article on ‘kedudukan saf kanak-kanak’: http://soaljawab.wordpress.com/2007/04/29/saf-kanak-kanak/


p/s: I am tired of writing articles as nobody actually listens. So I’d rather write sembang kopi, it’s stress-free for me.

Monday, July 21, 2008

Not So Holiday

I used to think that when university is done, I will step into another totally different and exciting phase of my life: working. Apparently, the grass is perhaps not always greener on the other side. I am currently working at Institute of Advanced Technology as a research assistant - yeah it sounds cool, but don't judge a book by it's cover. My reason for working is to gain some experience and not waste my time during this summer break: Doing nothing. The job is perhaps pretty interesting: I have to program a firmware for an audio decoder which can do voice over ip (VoIP). However, staying at office from 8.00 a.m. until 5.00 p.m. proves to be quite a challenge sometimes, as I can do my work only for about 3/4 hours per day due to various reasons which I rather not state (Rule out: I am lazy). So, hello internet, here I am blogging, with nothing much to do. Ops...

Actually I have been 'flirting' with other companies at the moment, and hopes high, insyaAllah I will lend another internship job at a prolific private company soon (geez, I'm overhiping this). Don't get me wrong, this is perfectly ethical as my supervisor actually has his hands full at the moment, he is satisfied with me thus far, and he would be glad if I can actually find another job. In the end, I learn that you have to enjoy your work or it can be quite a drag, and please do enjoy your university life while you can - erm, the halal way! How's that? I don't know, think for yourself.

One of the things I enjoy the most about working is lunch break! Again don't get me wrong, I can give my supervisor's testimonial about his satisfaction with my work, and of course I think the 'pleasure of programming' is almost second to none - except when you get stack overflow error. So, what's so good about lunch break? Nasi lemak, nasi ayam, mee bandung? Not really... It's something so special called solat zuhr at the mosque.

I must say that some aspects my life have taken quite a big turn from what I plan off late, but in retrospective, all I can say is Alhamdulillah. Come to think of it, I 'just realize' that perhaps I have almost everything that I want at this dunya, and I can be considered so very fortunate as a human being. So, I just feel that I am a very ingratitude servant - lunch break is a good time to think! Well, I sit down at the restaurant and see people from all walks of life - pondering about my own predicament.

Back to something-so-special: The sad part about 'lunch break' is that there is only (almost) one saf of jema'ah at the mosque - this university houses ten thousands of Muslims, so where have you been? Even Toronto Mosque with little Muslim population has almost the same amount of attendance for zuhr. It's true that there are lots of other small suraus at department buildings, but we know for a fact that we will choose nasi ayam on top of solat jema'ah anytime... Maybe it's not a big deal, but if we reflect about ourselves, actually we regard the hereafter like a wing of a mosquito and the ephemeral world like an endless ocean.

One thing I realize: When you leave something for so long, you forget how it feels like. The first few weeks, amazingly I was pretty reluctant about going to the stables. It's not that I don't love them, or I don't miss them, it's just that, maybe I can't quite remember what's so good about them. And now I'm hooked up back, and no words can describe how it feels like to be with them again. Maybe Winston Churchill came close: "There is something about the outside of a horse that is good for the inside of a man." There is just that something... something... hmm something...

There is also 'another something' which all of us should try to do. So.. What's that? How about a reward of BMW M5 in front of your door for doing it? It's easy trust me. Will you take it or not? Perhaps too good to be true: sounds like a fraud.

Narrated Kharijah ibn Hudhafah al-Adawi: The Apostle of Allah s.a.w. came out to us and said: Allah the Exalted has given you an extra prayer which is better for you then the red camels (i.e. high breed camels). This is the witr which Allah has appointed for you between the night prayer and the daybreak.

(Sunan Abu Dawud Book 8 Hadith 1413)

p/s: Ok it's a fraud. Well, red camels are expensive during that time. Kind of like a BMW M5, seriously... So 3 raka'at for BMW M3, 5 raka'at for a BMW M5, etcetera. Wow! Well, you get what I mean...

p/s2: Perhaps pictures coming soon...

Thursday, July 10, 2008

BIG BROTHER IS WATCHING YOU!


George Orwell is indeed a genius. Nineteen Eighty-Four is a reality nowadays - not much of a sci fi or distant dystopia anymore. Bush just signs U.S. spy bill, draws lawsuit, and Obama votes for the overall bill too. As days go by, the true face of Obama slowly emerges.

WASHINGTON (Reuters) - U.S. President George W. Bush signed a law on Thursday overhauling rules for eavesdropping on terrorism suspects but immediately faced a civil liberties challenge calling it a threat to Americans' privacy.

"This law will protect the liberties of our citizens while maintaining the vital flow of intelligence," Bush said at a White House ceremony to mark a rare legislative victory for the president during his last year in office.

The bill authorizes U.S. intelligence agencies to eavesdrop without court approval on foreign targets believed to be outside the United States.

However, it is comforting to know that there are still Winstons and Julias out there, fighting for their rights.

The American Civil Liberties Union, Amnesty International, Human Rights Watch and others immediately filed suit in Manhattan federal court and called for the law to be voided.

"The lawsuit asks the court to stop the government from enforcing the new unconstitutional wiretapping law, which will give the Bush administration unfettered power to spy on Americans without warrants or judicial oversight," the group said.

The most contentious issue was a provision that grants liability protection to telecommunication companies that took part in a warrantless domestic spying program Bush began after the Sept. 11 attacks. The measure shields those firms from potentially billions of dollars in damages from privacy lawsuits.

ACLU President Anthony Romero, in a fundraising letter to supporters, said the provision means "your phone calls can be tapped and e-mails read with virtually no proof of threat, and there's no chance to learn how the telecoms invaded your privacy."

Here is what the two-face (perhaps O'brien) has to say:

"Given the choice between voting for an improved yet imperfect bill, and losing important surveillance tools, I've chosen to support the current compromise," Obama said on his campaign Web site.

If you do no wrong, then there is nothing to hide. Let the paranoids indulge in their unrelenting paranoia...

(source: the star online)




Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Noah Ark II?



This giant floating city is called Lilypad City. According to the architect, Vincent Callebaut:

'The whole city is covered by plants housed in suspended gardens. The goal is to create a harmonious coexistence of humans and nature. Some countries spend billions of pounds working on making their beaches and dams bigger and stronger. But the Lilypad project is actually a long term solution to the problem of the water rising. And it has the other objective of providing housing for refugees from islands that have been submerged. I think trying to accomodate the millions of people left homeless by environmental changes will prove to be one of the great challenges of the 21st century.'

p/s: Some doubt that technology is the solution to our present crisis.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Redha?

"Once there was a man who asked God for a flower and a butterfly. But instead he got a cactus and a caterpillar. The man was sad, he didn't understand why his request was mistaken. Then he thought: Oh well, God has too many people to care for... And he decided not to question.

After some time, the man went to check up on his request that he had left forgotten. To his surprise from the thorny and ugly cactus, a beautiful flower had grown. And the unsightly caterpillar had been transformed into the most beautiful butterfly. God always does things right. His way is always the best even to us it seems wrong. If you asked God for one thing and recieve another , TRUST.

You can be sure that He always gives you what you need at the appropriate time. What you want is not always what you need. God never fails to grant our petitions, so keep on going for Him without doubting or murmuring. God gives the very best to those who leave the choices to Him." (anonymous)


Isn't that just redha? But isn't redha just hard?
p/s: I really hope I can turn empty rhetoric into real practice. I know I have to be strong. Mari jadi Naruto!

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Homecoming

Yes I am on my way home - soon.

There is no secret so close as that between a rider and his horse. ~Robert Smith Surtees

Housewarming


I have to admit that I am the worst when it comes to action plan. Manja sangat kot masa kecik, tu la siape suruh tak pergi asrama! Semua mak buat... But I am trying to change that slowly as obligations pile up on my shoulders and people put expectations on me. I can't run away from them, can I? Well, not forever... So another twist of randomness in my life, next semester I'll be living with the guys. It was not an easy decision to make after... after all these while... Sometimes good things just don't last forever. My former housemate is the most wonderful person on this planet (I hope you don't read this, but what a futile one aight? hehe..). Only he will listen to my 'crazy' ideas nowadays and makes me think that I am not really 'crazy' after all. He promised to write a book about me (hihihi..) - apart from Dubai architecture. A guaranteed best seller for 'paper lama surat khabar lama' I guess.

Anyway, we had a housewarming day, bukan untuk halau hantu, but to thank those who had been there for us all these while. InsyaAllah next semester will be good. All of us are in the same faculty, so we will rule Skule -insyaAllah. Plus, I have no room of my own, so I guess I won't be consumed by the gloom that often. Plus, this new apartment is even closer to the mosque (5 minutes walk), so that makes life... easier. I think anyone who wants to buy a new house should find a mosque first. But of course at my home country there are tons of surau, so it won't be such a hard thing to do. No masjid, no life. Really, you feel dead, especially over here. Well, you've got to try first and feel the difference.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Sadaqah (Charity)

These are notes from Sheikh Abdul Mun’im Burkhes halaqa taken by my friend. The Shaikh explained Ibn Qayyim al-Jawziyya's (rahimahullah) book al-Wabil as-Sayyib min Kalim at-Tayyib (Abundant Showers from the Good Word).

In continuing to explain the Hadith of Al Ashari regarding the order given to Yahya AS ordering the Children of Israel to act on five things, we explained fasting last week. The example of fasting, to recap is a man in a group with a bag of musk. Everyone is amazed at the fragrance and is a secretive action that is hidden from other humans for Allah’s sake only. The true one who fasts observes fasting for all of the body parts, staying away from evil. The sweetness of breath of a person who fasts is liked more by Allah SWT and it will appear in the Last Day as a fragrance of musk.

Regarding the fourth order-Sadaqah is that one who gives in charity is the parable of a man captivated by an enemy tied up to his neck and he was to be executed. He said he would ransom himself from anything, be it little or a lot and he saved himself from them. This statement made the Prophet SAW above shares that the proof of this is that it is happening and that charity has amazing effects of repelling bad effects, even by an oppressor, even a disbeliever. Allah SWT pushes away from this person different types of calamities. Imam at-Tirmidi narrates based on the Prophet SAW said Sadaqa extinguishes the anger of Allah and pushes away the evil death (one after commiting an evil sin, on Kufr, in a calamity, intoxicated, etc). Sadaqa pushes away the evil death and it also erases the disobediances just like the water puts out fire.

When Mu’ad Ibn Jabal was on a journey with the Prophet SAW, the Prophet SAW said that charity is a shield; it washes it away exactly as the water extinguishes fire. Surah Sajdah V.16 reflects this principle. In some reports, it says that one should hasten to give Sadaqa because clamity doesn’t go beyond Sadaqa. In the example of the Prophet SAW, the one who was brought up to be executed and he ransomed himself, in this parable is sufficiency showing the greatness of the Sadaqa as it saves the person from the anger of Allah and the sadaqa releases the person from torment. This is why the Prophet SAW said when he gave to the women on Eid, he made sure to give the women an admonition: ‘Oh women, give in charity even if you give from your jewelry as verily I have you to be most of the dwellers of Jahanam.’

In another Hadith, the Prophet SAW said none except that his Lord with speak to him, he looks to his right and he looks to the left only to see the deeds he has done. When looking forward, he will not see except the fire facing him, so save yourself from the fire by even half a date. In Abu Dharr RA’s question to the Prophet SAW, he asked what would save a person from Jahanam. He replied faith. Abu Dharr RA then asked what actions. The Prophet SAW said that one who gives in charity from what Allah SWT has provided one (not even much). Abu Dharr RA then asked if one was poor, then what would he do? The Prophet SAW replied that one could command good and forbid evil. Abu Dharr RA then asked, what if one cannot do this? The Prophet SAW said, then help the ignorant or foolish. Abu Dharr RA asked what if this can’t be done, then the Prophet SAW said let him help someone who is oppressed. Abu Dharr RA said what if a person could do this; then the Prophet SAW said let him without his evil from the people. Abu Dharr RA finally asked, if a person does this, then will a person enter Paradise. The Prophet SAW said that these all will help a person enter into Paradise.

‘Umar RA said ‘it was mentioned to me that the righteous deeds compare themselves to each other and the charity says it is the best. Based on a Hadith from Abu Huraira RA, the Prophet SAW gave an example of the miser versus the one who gives charity. They both have breast-plates made of iron and their hands were forced to be on their chest and on the collar bones. Everytime a person gives Sadaqa, the plate gets wider until it will cover his traces on the floor and erases his bad. As for the one who is a miser, every time he wants to give charity, it would get smaller and shrinks even more causing the plate to suffocate him. The Prophet SAW signaled that even though the person would try to widen it, it wouldn’t get wider.

Another Hadith says that it is upon every Muslim to give charity. When they asked what about one who doesn’t find charity? The Prophet SAW said that one should work, benefit himself and give charity. If one cannot do that, then the person could try to help a very needy person. If one cannot do that, then one should protect himself from doing evil to other people.

Since the miser is with-held from doing righteous actions, then his chest is narrowed and there would be no relief for such a person. His heart cannot find peace and he is heedless, ignorant and one who is very selfish with a small, cold soul. His happiness is scarce and he has lot of worry, sadness and grief; he can hardly fulfill the needs he has and he’s not helped to achieve his goals. And so, he is like a man who has a plate of iron on him and he is stuck in this; every time he tries to do go, the plate will stick and not move. His stinginess withholds him from doing this and his heart remains in the prison like it was. As for the one who gives charity, his heart becomes at peace and his chest opens up-this resembles the widening of the plate on him. His heart becomes widened and his happiness would be great and strengthened. If one attains such heights, then the person would hope to rush to do it.

In Surah Al Hashr, V.9 Allah SWT says: ‘those who save themselves from greediness, then they are saved’. Some people who circle the Ka’bah and supplicate ‘O Allah protect me from greed and avarice of my soul’. When asked why the people would say this, then the person referred to this Verse. The covetousness is that one is so deligant to have something and strive the best to achieve a target for the soul to be eager and longing to have something. While stinginess is withholding from spending, to love it and keep it; one would thus be covetous before he gets the money and stingy as he attains the money. It is a latent part in people and the one who obeys his greed, while the one who is not greedy, he is saved from this and is the one who is successful. They would be amongst the close ones towards Allah and his family while the greedy are far away from Paradise and close to the Fire. The generousity would make him lovable to the enemies while his stinginess will make him hated by his children. In poetry, it says: ‘What will show the flaw of a human amongst the people is him being stingy. His generosity will cover his mistakes from all; cover yourself with generosity as this is will protect one from the sins’. To be generous, is to give what is needed at the time of need and to deliver the assistance based on ones ability. Generosity is not to give what is present. If generosity were like this then there would be no such things a spendthrift. In the Sunnah being a spendthrift is proclaimed forbidden and ‘wasters are the brethren of the Shaytan’ (Qur’an).

If generosity is done in a praiseworthy way, then one deserves to be praise while the one who doesn’t do this, he is deserved to be dis-praised. In a report, Allah SAW made an oath with His might that a stingy person will not neighbor him. Generosity is of two types or levels; as for the most noble of the two types, it is to be generous to the sense that you don’t want to take from what other people have. As for the second type, it is to be generous of giving of what Allah SWT has provided one. The person could be amongst the most generous people yet he would not be given anything and this may be because he doesn’t want to take from others bounties. Generosity is for one to donate money and not being interested in the wealth of others.

Shaykh Ibn Taymiyyah reported from some of the pious predecessors; Allah SWT asked Ibrahim AS ‘do you know why I have appointed you as a Khalil? It is because you love to give more to people than you take’. This is from the attributes from Allah-he gives and doesn’t take, He is loves most those who has attributes that are necessitating from His Actions; i.e. He loves the brave, the beautiful, the generous, the holy, etc.

In a weak Hadith, ‘Surely Allah is pure and loves purity, he is clean and loves cleaniness and he is generous and loves generosity. So clean your frontyards so you will not be like the Jews’.

In Sahih Hadith, it mentions that Allah is Witr and he loves Al-Witr; if the attributes are fitting for servants to have, then Allah loves those people. Some attributes are special to Allah-like pride, might, etc is not fitting for anyone. It is praiseworthy to have those qualities. Allah is Merciful so He is merciful to those who show mercy. Allah is the Forgiving and will forgive the ones who forgives. Allah is Kind and will be kind to the ones who is kind to people. Allah will conceal the mistakes those who conceal others faults. He hates the ones who is rough and hard; rather He loves the gentle people as He is Gentle. He is Righteous loves the one who does righteous acts. He is Just and loves the just ones. He accepts from the one who accepts the excuses of people. The one who pursues and exposes the peoples mistakes-Allah will expose him. If one causes harm and difficulty to others, then Allah will put one through difficult. The one who plots evil, Allah will plot against him. If one cheats, Allah will cheat him. The one who deals with people with a certain quality, that same quality will be dealt in exactly this way. Therefore, the way the person is to people

The one who covers the mistakes of a Muslim, Allah SWT will cover him in this life and the next life. The one who relieves and calamity from a believer, then Allah will do this for him. If one is easy with another, then Allah SWT will be easy with him. The Prophet SAW also said the ones who give time to those who cannot pay or reduces the amount of debt, then Allah SWT will provide shade for him under the shade of His Throne. This is because this person who helps one who is indebted puts him under a shade and is patient, protecting him, then Allah will save him from the same pressure on Al-Qiyamah.

The Prophet SAW said in a Khutbah ‘oh those who believe by their tongues, do not pursue others mistakes because Allah will pursue the mistakes and this person will be exposed in the midst of his own home. Exactly as you do to others, this will be done to you. Be as you wish to be for surely Allah SWT will be exactly for you as you are for Him and others’. When the hypocrites showed Islam and hid Kufr within, Allah SWT will reveal to them on Al-Qiyamah, Allah SWT will reveal a light on a bridge and make it appear that they will pass the bridge but he hid the fact that the light will not go on and that Allah SWT will hide that they would be prevented from passing the bridge. This is of the same punishment as done in this life and Allah SWT will treat then as if they are in this life. Likewise, the one who shows the people opposite from what Allah SWT knows, then Allah SWT will reveal from him the causes leading to success and triumph but he will hide the opposite; i.e. if one cheats and deceives, this will be how Allah will treat him.

Whoever did righteous deeds to be seen by the people (and show it off intending the people to see and praise him), Allah will make him be seen but to the true intention in the Next Life seeing his real intentions. Whoever did good actions and spoke about them just for praise, then Allah will make him be heard of on the Day of Judgement but they will hear of his evil intentions. The objective is that the generous person is because Allah will expose the character and give the person exactly what he deserved.

Friday, June 20, 2008

A Farewell

He is leaving for good to Saudi today. I managed to buy a nice card for him =) His job is to treat the kids at the hospital for infectious disease. So he is very patient, funny, and kind-hearted - someone very suitable for the job. We have just lost someone valuable. He always reminds me to take off my glasses when I ride the subway and try recite some Qur'an from memory. But I rarely do that. ops... =p His last wish was for us to open a reading circle, starting with Syaikh al-Albani's The Prophet's Prayer Described. I will miss him and his halaqa. But I am sure his family misses him more.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Me, Myself, and Someone Like You

Me:
I don’t want to hurt nobody
With my sadomasochistic mentality,
I can’t relate to anybody
With my mental frailty,
It is others that I envy
While forgetting the real me,

Myself:
Are we actually the same entity?
We are not the same, aren’t we?
Why are you controlling me?
Making me thinking of ‘me,me and me’,
I think you make me unhealthy,
Veiling me from the Ultimate Reality,

Someone Like You:
Is whom I tried so hard to be,
Giving me light from far across the sea,
Dispersing darkness that surrounds me,
But words just escape me,
Never really help you see,
I hope I have truly set you free.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Will you hate me?

One of the best songs ever...
You know what? This 'performance' was at Islamic Foundation of Toronto
Just look at the bottom of the solat time board beside him...
He is a Canadian

by Dawud Wharnsby Ali

Smile in the two- way mirror of my eyes
I put on my faith like I wear a disguise
You can’t see my soul
See the life that I live
Show you the mask of the best I can give
I’ve hid here afraid like a child behind.
Truth of my thoughts that clutter my mind.
What if you knew about all that I do?
Things that I think,
The me that is true.

Would you call me a hypocrite?
Call me a liar?
Would you curse out my name?
Would you damn me to fire?
Would you know what to say?
Or would you just walk away?
Afraid the me I’ve tried to hide
Would you closely resemble the truth of you that lies inside?

I’ve been looking for answers since becoming an adult
Not looking for dogma to live like a cult
I’ve been looking to live,
I’ve been living to find
Freedom from cages that limit my mind.

Would you call me a hypocrite?
Call me a liar?
Would you curse out my name?
Would you damn me to fire?
Would you know what to say?
Or would you just walk away?
Afraid the me I’ve tried to hide
Would you closely resemble the truth of you that lies inside?

Will I scare you, upset you, frustrate you, irate you?
Challenge a lifestyle or weaken your trust
Or will you see my efforts and my passionate sincerity
Would you see just a little of yourself in me
Will you take off your mask so we can both be free.

Would you call me a hypocrite?
Call me a liar?
Would you curse out my name?
Would you damn me to fire?
Would you know what to say?
Or would you just walk away?
Afraid the me I’ve tried to hide
Would you closely resemble the truth of you that lies inside?

p/s: I've made a playlist of his songs/nasheeds that I like. Just click here.

The Suffocating Conservatives

This is just fictitious - now seriously ;)

I grew up just like any ordinary city boy. I grew up dreaming of owning the fastest graphic card on the planet, an overclocked gaming machine, a turbo-charged street racer with 20’ rim, a 40’ plasma tv, an authentic Fender Stratocaster guitar signed by John Fruschiante, a studio of my own, a grand prix thoroughbred of my own, and the list can go on forever. I grew up thinking that my life would be complete with those things and I was pretty much set for the dream. As far as I am concern, I got a stellar performance in high school and a place to study at a prestigious university overseas, so I was prety much right on the track.

I think I am bookish and rather scholarly since I was small, my classmates would call me pretty much a nerd, but with an attitude. I was a rebel since my early teenage, popular for my eccentricity among those who know me, but seemingly angelic to the unsuspecting ones – read: uncles, aunties, teachers and the likes. I was definately anti-establishment, but my demeanor revealed none of that - except of course if people caught me doing the act. Some of my classmates gave me the title: “calm water no buaya.”

Honestly, I used to think that those – let’s just put them as the nuqaba’ – are rather boring people from some other planet. Well, they know nothing about overclocked gaming machines, modified turbo-charged cars, let alone who Jimmy Hendrix is! So, they are the ones who need to get a life, not me. Their brand of conservatism just suffocated me. Having said that, I was not so detached from them either. After all, I was in the "sains agama" stream, so some of my friends were perhaps the nuqaba’ sort of material, naturally I did respect them. Simply put, my relationship with these people was an ambivalent one, I respect them but they were not my cup of tea. Naturally too, I had my own spiritual inclinations, and these unfulfilled inclinations battled with my self deep inside - that added up to the complication.

Some turns of events in my life brought me to a paradigm shift in terms of my worldview about this life. Simply put, I kind of changed – maybe just a bit. All I can say is, I no longer desire to own an overclocked gaming machine, a turbo-charged car, a Fender guitar, etcetera. A good friend of mine who knows me for a long time told me that I am turning more plastic. But I need no one’s reminder about that: I can feel it in my bones myself and I am trying to keep it real. Nowadays I often find myself in an awkward position of suffocating others with my brand of conservatism as opposed to me being the suffocated one. I guess sometimes – most of the times – I forget how it was like. I tell people to let go of their ‘dreams’ because they are not worth living, and people give me back the "Get a Life" look. True say, what comes around goes around.

Sometimes I ponder long at night thinking how to reconcile the two worlds – how to convince people that perhaps I am the 'al-Ghazali' who has seen it all. I can only imagine how these people feel when I start to impose certain things on them, but I have no idea how to translate that supposed understanding into a way to bridge the gap. Not to mention, I often fall short and irk other people when I make snide remarks about them, as I loose my temper. Great scholars say that there are three types of heart: the dead one, the so-and-so one, and the alive one. I am no scholar, but from my observation, there are three types of people that I usually come across:-

The super rich ones : These people have all the wonders of the dunya in their hands and it is a great trial for them. Usually what they seek for is to get more of the dunya. So that is their main goal in this life. They want the hottest sports car, a mansion, their daughters to dress like the western people (it’s liberating somehow), a young second wife (sometimes), indulge in high-class sports like golf or horse riding, and so on and so forth. So they feel accomplished if they get all those things. But if you know them in person, they are nice, charming people who just have high affinity for the ‘toys’ in this world.

The ordinary joe: These people they just want to live a simple, happy life. They mean no harm to anyone and usually they don’t desire those extravagant luxuries. But they do get excited about the dunya too, as they want to have a lot of fun in this life. I personally think they are the nicest people on this planet, as they don’t impose on you about anything and they will accept you without much prejudice.

The suffocating conservatives: These people act as though they are the vanguards of the moral order of the cosmos. They are - simply put - irritating people to be with. They tell you not to do this, not to do that, follow this, follow that, so that you will be saved. On top of that, these people like the dunya too (status): They call themselves Ikhwah and Akhawat to replace Dato’ and Datin. Actually they are nice people too, but many people missunderstood them. They want everyone to see the light, it's just that sometimes they get a tad too 'edgy'.

Sometimes the ordinary Joes envy the super rich ones for their luxuries, while the super rich ones envy the ordinary Joes for their care-free life. The suffocating conservatives envy no one because all they want to do is to change everyone else into machines like them. Thus, neither the ordinary Joes nor the super rich ones envy or like them. When the suffocating conservatives engage the super rich ones with their rhetoric like “Jadilah insan rabbani”, the answer will be something like, “Eww.. Oh my God... Get a life please.” Picture the same scenario, but this time around replace the super rich ones with the ordinary Joes, the answer will be: “Aku nak hidup lepak-lepak dulu, tak mau ar hidup dengan serious.” In the end, the frustrated suffocating conservatives will start swearing in their own unique way: “Maksiat.. Maksiat.”

Simply put, the rock solid triangle seems to be almost unbreakable. People might ask: “What is the remedy then?” Well, I would say: "I won't worry my life away..." So Ikhwah, Akhawat, Dato’, Datin, ladies and gentlemen, when are we going to sit on the same table and not get irritated by one another?

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Imam Abu Hanifah's Bequest to Abu Yusuf

Show people as much love as you can. Greet everyone, even the very lowly. If you gather with others in an assembly and discuss various problems, during which someone expresses an idea to which you are opposed, do not oppose them. If they ask you, give your opinion, speak what is in your heart, and say that there are such and such opinions on this subject and the proof is as follows. Thus, they will listen to you and understand the degree of your knowledge.

Show some degree of knowledge to all who approach you and let each one learn something from you. Give them important things, not trivial ones. Be like a friend to them, even make witty remarks by way of jokes, because friendship and sincerity ensures the continuation of knowledge. Treat them gently and be tolerant. Show no boredom or weariness to anyone. Comfort yourself as like one of them.

Trust no one’s friendship until it has been proven. Do not be friends with anyone low or vulgar. Be virtuous, generous, and deep of heart. Your clothes should be clean and new. Have a good horse to ride. Use pleasant scents. Be generous when you give people food to eat and satisfy everyone. Whenever you hear of any strife or corruption, hasten to resolve it. Visit those who visit you and those who do not. Always do good, whether others wish you good or ill. Forgive and turn a blind eye to some things. Abandon those things that distress you and try to do what is right. Visit those of your companions who fall ill, and ask after those you do not see. Take an interest in those who do not come to you.

The Effects and Need of Dhikr III

These are notes from Sheikh Abdul Mun’im Burkhes halaqa taken by my friend. The Shaikh explained Ibn Qayyim al-Jawziyya's (rahimahullah) book al-Wabil as-Sayyib min Kalim at-Tayyib (Abundant Showers from the Good Word). This session was on the chapter: 'The 'Effects (and need) of Dhikr'.

From the Hadith of Al-Harith al-Ashari in which Prophet Yahya AS ordered the Children of Israel five words. In the Hadith, the Prophet SAW explains that the one upon Tawhid as opposed to the one on Shirk is like the slave who works and gives the fruits of his work to his work while the latter, is the one who works in the lands of the Master but gives the profits to those other than the master. This shows how a Mushrik enjoys the favors yet worships other than Allah SWT. This was the first order and this is the worst sin (Shirk) without repentance in this life. Also, another type of sins is the type one commits against others-one can’t free us from the guilt except by given back their rights and getting their pardon. As for the third type, it is the ones between a person and His Lord-these can be erased by several ways such as seeking Istigfar, doing good, going through tests, etc.

Al-Salah is the second order wherein Allah SWT ordered us to pray and act upon them. One should not turn their attention/faces away from Allah SWT as He will do the same if the servant does and He won’t care about the servant. This ‘turning away’ is of two types-the first type is for the heart to turn away from Allah SWT and the second is the physical turning of the eyesight towards something else-both of which are forbidden. Allah SWT continues to care for his servant and attend to his servant as long as the servant is attending to his Salat. The Prophet SAW was asked about the turning that one does during his Salat. He replied that this turning away is a snatching that Shaytan does of the Salat - an embezzlement. It is like one is turning to one who is turning to one who is better than Allah - of which, there is none. This example is like one going up to a sultan/king who he went to meet. It is like he turns away from the sultan/king and doesn’t pay attention. What do you think the sultan will think; won’t the sultan expel him and have no care for him whatsoever?

Therefore the one who turns away can’t be equal to the one whose heart is attending the Salat and has Khushoo-the one who is filled with fear and is humbled before his Lord and even shy to even turn to someone else. The difference/excellence between these two, related by Hassan al Atiya is that of the excellence/difference between the Heavens and the Earth. This is because one is turning with his heart to Allah SWT while the other is unaware and almost mindless of Allah. It is like a barrier is placed between you, filled with misconceptions, lusts, evil whisperings and the soul will be busy with these thoughts-filled with nothing of the remembrance of the Greatness of Allah SWT. If he stands in the Salat, the Shayatn becomes very jealous of him because he stands in the greatest position-the closest position where Shaytan gets most upset. It is the most severe condition and Shaytan is very careful and strives as much as possible to not allow the person attain such a station. He makes him wish, hope, forget and tries to attack the human with all types of soldiers and makes the person belittle the Salat. And as a result, the person is unable to pray and makes the person remember things of no value or of forgotten things in order to busy his heart away from that thing and the servant stands without a heart and will not achieve the honoring, attention or closeness to Allah SWT. This servant who’s heart wanders everywhere will exit the Salat with his sins and disobediences and the heavy scales of wrongdoing wouldn’t be reduced.

The Salat only washes away sins for the one who completes it’s requirements and focus. If a person stood before Allah with his heart and body, then this person would feel the relief and as if the burdens are taken off and would feel rest and piece. This would give him a repose, a ‘coolness to his eyes’ and the Paradise of his heart-the place of rest for him in this worldly life. As a result, he will feel as if he is under stress and grief, in a narrow place till he enters Salat-giving him comfort and tranquility. The ones who love Allah SWT say ‘we pray so we gain comfort in our hearts’ and this is following of the Prophet SAW as he would say to Bilal RA that ‘let us pray to get us comfort’-he didn’t say ‘let us get comfort by simply finishing it’. Thus, the main source of comfort has been made through prayer and the one who finds this comfort would never want to leave it, making him want to pray on time and prolong his prayer duration. This will give the person Noor until Allah SWT will see it and the Salat will say ‘may Allah guard and protect you like how you guarded and protected me’. As for the other one who doesn’t pray properly, the Salat will be rolled up and thrown at him saying ‘may Allah destroy you like how you destroyed me’.

Also, there is no believing person who perfects Wudhu’ in each and every place and he stands on prayer on time, not diminishing any of it’s (Salat’s) tenets. The light of the prayer will shine forth East and West and the light will reach Ar-Rahman while the other person, who steals from the parts of the Salat will go towards Allah SWT black and it will say ‘may Allah destroy you’.

The first type of good deed is when someone who remembers Allah always and the actions are presented till the deeds face Allah and the person sees that they are done pleasing, intiated from a sound heart that is loving and seeking the Nearness to Allah SWT-then, Allah SWT will love and accept these deeds. As for the second, the person would do the deeds as to his habit and negligence and he intends to seek obedience with his actions being made but his intentions not put in the Book of Intentions. Thus, Allah SWT will only reward for what is done for and the rest of no sincerity will be rejected. When heedlessness sets in to someone who does try to good, he will get some of the reward Bi ‘idn Allah while the one who works for the Pleasure of Allah, Allah SWT will be pleased with the actions and will love him, bringing him closer to him and raise his degree and level, giving him without count. Thus, the rewards are not the same.

Regarding the use of Siwak, it is meant to be much higher in value-the acceptance of the deeds is of different types as the one who works for the best, then Allah will boast to the Angels of the person’s greatness. The other option is that Allah will reward the person but the degree will not be the same. The third type of acceptance may lead the punishment to be dropped and no reward is brought. Just like the Salat of the one whose heart has no remembrance, then there is no reward-that person still fulfilled the mark but the value is much lower.

In a Hadith it says the prayer of the one who runs away from his master and the one who goes to a fortune teller is like the one who has not prayed even though they have. Their Salat will not be accepted as the reward is not fulfilled and the deeds vary in degrees according to what is in the heart of faith, love and glorifying Allah and in terms of sincerity and according to how much the person follows the Sunnah of the Prophet SAW.

The people are on five degrees in their Salat. The first one is the one who wrongs himself from falling short-taking away from the Wudu, from the time of Salat, from it’s pillars. The second person is the one who guards his Salat and guards it’s pillars and outward limits but he didn’t strive against Waswasa (whisperings) and the physical actions doesn’t have Khushoo. The third type is the one who strives and tries to push away the thoughts from his enemy such that he guards his Salat through Jihad an-Nafs. The fourth type is wherein the person stands for Salat and completely fulfills it’s pillars such that the obligations of Salat and there is great dedication-such that the person is completely indulged in remembrance. The fifth person stands like the fourth person with focus, Khushoo and everything but along with this, he took his heart and he put it between the hands of his Lord, his heart is filled with the love for his Lord as if he sees and witnesses his Lord-such that all the whispers have vanished and as if the veils have been removed to a point that there is excellence which is like the difference between the Heavens and Earth.